Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Donations needed for family friend.

http://www.gofundme.com/3q4b5kdg

Betsey is one of my moms best friends, they have been close since high school and has always been apart of my life growing up. She's more than a family friend she's like family, she recently diagnosed with rare lymphoma that is treatable but not curable. Her husband has set up a go fund me account to be able to make her more comfortable since she won't feel well with treatment and outside germs can hurt her. Whether it's donating or sharing so others can donate all is appreciated.

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Relationships.

I have so many friends who struggle with their relationships. Constant shit storms, fights, anger, and destruction. It is hard to find the right person, it takes time, but don't sit there and waste your time on the wrong one.

I can speak from my own perspective that relationships will never be perfect and you wouldn't want it to be. But there is no reason why a relationship should make either person feel overly stressed, angry, hurt, resentful or broken down.

The first thing I have noticed is
1) the lack of trust, if you do not trust someone don't be with them. If you are hurt from past relationships and portray that onto the next person you are with than you need to be single for a bit and focus on you.
 a) I have also seen people yell at their S.O to come home after they have been drinking, just to yell at them. Do you seriously want your loved one to risk their life driving? On top of it all people say things they don't mean when they are drunk, don't set yourself up for that pain.
 b) If they are with a best friend trust them that they really are. You cannot prevent someone from cheating, squeezing harder onto them is going to make them want to stray more. Listen, if a girl or guy is a cheater it will expose itself sooner or later, it is not you no matter who you are because it is wrong and a conscious decision to sleep with someone else.

2) Lack of communication
This is the one biggest things for relationships and if you cannot talk to your S.O without them yelling at you right off the bat you need to do some thinking.
a) I see people abuse communication by calling someone else a name or make the other person feel bad or make things seem one sided. You have to think what am I doing wrong? How can I improve it? But also know that it takes two to tango.
b) don't yell, talk as calmly as possible, make sure you express how important it is to you to talk.
c) don't be afraid to express if something is a deal breaker, for new relationships get it out of the way then and there. You want what you want don't settle for anything less.
d) Communicate about sex, if you aren't happy talk about spicing things up. Sex is not a chore, it is not a "man's" duty or a "woman's" duty. It is healthy to have sex and holding sex over someone's head is manipulative and wrong. Not respecting that your S.O needs or wants to have sex more is not okay. It is one thing if you have no drive, but even then that should be talked about. If you don't, it can leave the other person feeling like they are unattractive, unwanted, or unloved.
e) COMMUNICATE, COMMUNICATE, COMMUNICATE!!!!

3) Changing people.
If you don't like someone for who they are don't be with them. You cannot change someone. Would you like someone coming into your life and telling you how to be? No? Then knock it off.

Now for more rambling and random tips because I HAVE to get this out.

Men and women who try to change people, yell, bitch, complain, use sex as a weapon, act different until your married, hinder others from their dreams, or who blow up their S.O's phones. Seriously you are making the rest of us look bad.

You must be at peace with yourself before you involve someone else. Love yourself before you can love someone else. Accept everyone in all forms. Don't be afraid to have fun.

Recently for an example, my fiance and I every time we talk it's either about work, bills, how we are managing. I am guilty of being really uptight and constantly am the penny pincher who is always thinking about where money goes where. He stresses because he feels sometimes all his hard work isn't paying off.

I remembered when we had nothing, no money, no jobs, no where to go and we always had fun because we didn't care about anything as long as we were together.

Finally I told him no more work talk, bills talk, or anything. We went to the casino and hung out, bought a crap ton of beer and talked listening to music. Just letting ourselves talk freely about everything. We hold nothing from each other. It felt great to not give a shit. I think people forget to relax with each other, drowning in responsibility so much that the flame burns out.

We are a relationship that I think many people didn't see working out because I was 20 when we met and he was 33. He and I also were also at our roughest points in life, I was pretty much drinking myself to death at the time having just dealt with some very dark experiences and he, abusing meth. We had no money, no jobs, no where to really go, living day by day with no responsibilities. In most cases it wouldn't have worked out, but I am now almost 24 and my fiance is 37 still going strong. He is four years clean, he walked away and never went back. I now barely drink, we own a home, have four cats, he has a great job and I have been pursuing my art career. I know a lot of people didn't think it would work, a lot of people tried to say he wasn't the one for me, and yes, it wasn't ideal the situation he was in but no matter the age, what he had been through, what I had been through none of it mattered. I fell in love with his heart, his soul, his mind.

People seem to think you have to have some check list for the perfect person, rules of who you can or can't be with and it doesn't exist.

The only reason we have survived is because we communicate, support each other, and are open to one another 110%, he doesn't sweat small things and neither do I.

Jealousy is non-existent.

Jealousy is the most awful reason to break up with someone, and now that we have social media people are convinced that in a relationship we have to exchange passwords and snoop, we don't. Everyone deserves privacy and be trusted. Like I said in the article earlier a relationship will not work if there is no trust.

Don't stress on trying to be some perfect thing for someone or anyone for that matter because it doesn't exist. Perfection is in your own mind and if you like yourself and can honestly say you are a good person and a good GF/BF then be happy with yourself.

Even people we think are perfect get dumped, they get their heartbroken, they make mistakes. Life is too short to keep putting all your energy into squeezing someone in your arms so they will stay.

A relationship can be great but people take it so seriously like an imprisonment, like you are stuck with someone. The ball and chain concept. Love is messy and sometimes it really sucks.

But in a good relationship, when both people care and truly love each other who would do anything for each other. It can be the greatest feeling in the whole world.

While many believe true love like in the movie "The Notebook" isn't real, I can safely say it is out there.


Friday, December 27, 2013

Read this if you want to quit smoking cigarettes.

With the new year approaching closer and closer the time for New Years resolutions are about to come up. I cannot tell you how many times I have heard people say they are quitting smoking on the coming of the new year and a week later are smoking again.

I have battled with this unfortunate habit as well, some things I have picked up along the way have seemed to help me and others quite a bit.

First off you have a few options when it comes to quitting you have cold turkey, the patch, the gum, and electronic cigarettes for cutting back. All of which I have tried.

I am telling you right now that cold turkey is not only a inefficient way to go but also can cause strains with loved ones as you will probably be irritated and jump into little fights that mean nothing just because you do not have a cigarette. It is especially harder if you have family that finds out your quitting and starts off by saying "Well you better quit, if you don't I swear I am going to be so mad at you." Yeah we all have those tough love relatives and even though they mean well it can just make you rather hear nails on a chalkboard.

For those tough love relatives I personally wouldn't even tell them, just have them notice on their own that you are not smoking. Because if you break down you don't have the added pressure. Everyone breaks down.

Major tips
#1 Say: "Well I broke down however, I went X amount of hours/days/months without a cigarette which helped my health either way."

#2 When you break down just start quitting again and act like it's nothing.

#3 If you are quitting with someone make a deal to not be angry at each other about breaking, it is hard to quit but if your spouse smokes it makes it so much harder when both are quitting.

#4 Reward yourself with the money you are saving from not smoking calculate how much you spend a week and buy yourself something with that money.

#5 Remember on average it takes a person over seven attempts to quit smoking.

Big Topic: THE PATCH

I hear many people say that the patch hurts them and they ripped it off. I'll tell you what the patch sucks at first. You get itchy, rashy, and your arm will hurt. But you are putting chemicals on your skin so of course it's going to hurt. The longer you keep it on the more your body will be used to it.  Eventually it will be like nothing no red marks only a slight ache when the nicotine is releasing on and off throughout the day.

I also hear people complain about prices and they are expensive but I have found alternatives that are way less or free. For one instead of buying Nicoderm but the Equate brand it's the same thing but way cheaper. Here in Washington I would buy the 21mg patches or 14mg patches and cut them in half or whatever I need, for 14 patches it's under twenty dollars.

1mg = 1 cigarette

You smoke half a pack a day cut a 21mg patch in half.

There are also a lot of helplines that will even give you anything you need to quit for free.

I had one hotline that did and if I could remember the name I would promote these people like crazy so when I find them again I will post it. These people even had a number to call when I was having a "nic fit" and would calm me down and help me find alternatives and also give free patches. That was my first time trying and they helped me get through a month cold turkey. (I was 18 and nervous about trying the patch for the first time. So I did not have them send any.)

THE GUM

It tastes awful unless you get the minty kind but problem is it made me want to chew it more because of the flavor. With the gum you chew it until you get a tingle and then put it in your cheek kind of like chew. It does kind of burn and for some people like my best friend it made her feel nauseous and light headed. I think it is because when you chew it sometimes you give yourself too much.

ELECTRONIC CIGARETTES

I would recommend this for anyone who smokes over a pack a day because even doctors say patches are not useful for people who smoke that much. This can help you cut back, it really kills that craving for a cigarette and allows you more freedom.

Before you even start quitting though there is a big piece of advice that I want to share that most will never tell you.

When you decide you want to quit you have all that time before you can get your materials and it can change your mind. We all go in and out on quitting so this is my advice.

Buy your quitting smoking materials and keep them on you, when that urge to quit hits start then. A quit date I always found to be pressuring and would find myself trying to finish off my pack before that day and then deciding well maybe I don't want to quit.

Treat this like an ordinary thing the pressure can crack you and break you down.

The more you quit the more and more you realize how much you aren't dependent on tobacco.

I hope that these tips can help you and if anyone quitting needs support feel free to contact me for any questions or advice.

You can do anything you put your mind to, do not doubt yourself feel proud for even trying because in life all you can do is try and try again until you succeed.

Monday, October 28, 2013

Krokodil, the drug that should not exist. Warning: Contains graphic images.

Krokodil is a heroin like substance that is cheaper than the actual drug heroin, it's affects last a less amount of time but is becoming increasingly noticeable because of its low cost.

It has been around in Russia for a good amount of time and has surfaced in Illinois, Arizona, and I have even heard that it has even popped up in Washington State. In Russia it is hard to come by heroin and that is why it has become such an issue there. I feel the reason why it is starting to come here is not the lack of heroin, but the fact that people are poor, and people who are addicted will do whatever they can to get their fix. It is an expense problem.

The affects of this drug is so severe that a user of this drug MAY live for one to two years. It literally rots you from the inside out. What is scary is people who use heroin may not even realize that they are using Krokodil and may be thinking that they are just getting a cheaper version of heroin until it is too late.

When has a drug dealer ever been honest, and who is going to say buy this it is cheaper but will rot you from the inside out.

Doctors who have seen it have claimed that it people who use this drug smell of rotting flesh and that the drug gets it's name for the scaly green skin that it gives people.

It is a deadly mixture of codeine, gasoline, butane, paint thinner, and who knows what else. Usually the people who are being treated for this are put in burn units, and I am sure they probably have to graph new skin on the victims.

I hope no one uses this drug, and if anyone reading this is, please stop.

We need to stop this drug, and right now no one is sure how far it has gone.

These images I am going to show are not exaggerated this is real, and this is the affects of this drug. This isn't from years of abuse this is from short term abuse being a few months to a year or two. After that you die.






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Whoever made this drug can rot in hell. I hope that this doesn't end up being a big trend it is already scary enough that our children, and all loved ones are exposed to meth, heroin, cocaine, but now things like krokodil, bath salts, and other random drugs that are being made.

I don't understand how you could do this and allow yourself all that pain and all of your family the pain of watching you suffer.

Be aware and raise awareness on this drug.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Giving a stray a second chance.

I have learned a lot about FIV in the past few days, the reason being is because I have fallen for a sweet old stray cat I named Big Red. This poor cat was abandoned ten years ago by some heartless people that used to live in my trailer park. Left to survive on his own and no one wanting him he had to fight for his life. 

I found him under my porch, he would come around at night and eat cat food I put outside for the neighborhood cats. (I swear I am NOT a crazy cat lady) just someone who loves animals. Well he finally learned to trust me, before then he wouldn't approach me he would bolt seeing anyone. 

I asked my neighbor and my landlord about him, people had been trying to catch him to take him to a shelter but he wouldn't let anyone approach him. 

All in all my cat started living on my porch because I started feeding him tuna and skinless, boneless chicken. When I first found him he was matted, skin and bones, he was an inch from death.

Taking him into the vet yesterday I started crying when I heard he had feline AIDS because I have three normal cats and thought I can't bring him in and he is going to die if I don't.

A lot of people think, including myself in the past, that even petting a cat with FIV will get my normal cat sick. But it is false. Actually normal social contact will not cause your cats to get sick, even sharing bowls is a slim chance. Fighting, sex, and litter boxes are the main ways. 

I say to just even keep them separate. Now Big Red lives in my master bedroom and he is so old, he is just happy to sleep on a giant queen bed and have someone bring him breakfast in bed. 

I could have given to a shelter and I could have put him down, but I would rather give him a second chance at life and I knew that taking him to a shelter no one would take a 14 year old cats with AIDS. 

It's not easy losing a pet, and I know I could lose him even five minutes from now. But I know that I am giving him a life he never thought he would have again. 

He is now on antibiotics, eye drops for conjunctivitis, he had gotten flea medication, and de worming. He has gingivitis, conjunctivitis, and swollen glands. But he is doing better.

This is him in the picture obviously, could you look at this cat and reject giving him a better life? I hope your answer is no.

If you have up and abandoned an animal look at how infected this cat is, and realize how screwed up it is to ditch an animal. A creature that loved you and you threw it away to die. If you don't love an animal and want to keep it forever then DON'T GET A PET!!! It is people like me that clean up your cruel mess. If you don't want your cat anymore take it to a shelter, not a pound a shelter. Have a heart, and don't be afraid to love an animal even the really sick ones.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Weddings

I never realized how complicated and expensive weddings were until I got engaged. Three years later, I have a beautiful Vera Wang dress in my closet and sometimes I wasn't sure if I could ever afford to wear that beautiful gown. 

How much do people on average spend on weddings? 

According to costofwedding.com "On average, US couples spend $25,656 for their wedding. However, the majority of couples spend between $19,242 and $32,070."

Wow that would mean divided up monthly, for the average that is, equals $2,138 if you were to save one year. 

For most people that is a whole months worth of income. So how do we cut the costs? How do we have a great wedding without paying all the money?

For one: Make your cake, how many times have you gone to a wedding and seen the gorgeous cake just to take a bite and have it taste like cardboard? Choose quality over how it looks. 

Two: Make your own center pieces sometimes you can find great deals at Michaels or Joann Fabrics on all different materials. Theknot.com has a lot of information about everything weddings, you can see what center pieces there are and make them on your own. It also adds a creative touch when people know you made it yourself.

Three: As far as venues go some places are online at theknot.com and they show pictures of the venue to give you an idea, and some places offer catering deals if you go to them. 

Most things can be homemade, the most expensive things would be probably the dresses, venue, and tuxedos. An article that I recently found really made me happy to know that a successful wedding could happen with a small budget. 




Big suggestion is this site, they give you great ideas and can help you organize everything pretty easily.


Feel free to comment or follow me on Twitter let me know what you think, I love hearing opinions. 

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

The buzz on the electronic cigarettes, lies and truth.

Electronic cigarettes have been picking up lately, more and more people including celebrities are using them more than actual cigarettes. 

But what is the real truth about them?

Are they really unsafe like some of the medical studies say?

Think about the cigarette you are smoking right now, you are currently smoking 4000 chemicals and 69 are cancer causing chemical compounds. (According to tricountycessastion.org) 

Electronic cigarettes all depending what kind of e-liquid you buy or cartridges you purchase have only a few. I personally have purchased an electronic cigarette to quit smoking, the chemicals in the e-liquid I use have propylene glycol, vegetable glycol, and nicotine. 

The glycol in the e-liquid produces the vapor smoke you exhale. Yes they are chemicals, and yes there are still health risks but I can safely say that it is way healthier than smoking cigarettes.

What I will warn people about though is when you are purchasing e-liquid, KNOW WHAT IS IN YOUR PRODUCT! Keep a lookout for ethylene glycol which is something that they put in antifreeze. 

But anyone saying that they are worse than cigarettes is sitting in the back pocket of tobacco companies. When you think about it and all the money tobacco companies make, well when it comes to greedy people almost anything has a price. 

There have been a lot of people quitting cigarettes and smoking only e-cigs, I fully believe that the tobacco companies are worried about seeing a massive decline in their accounts. Now not only are they bashing the electronic cigarette idea but they now are trying to start making their own electronic cigarettes.

I am sure this whole world benefits from us smoking and ruining our bodies. 

In Washington state where a pack is on average eight dollars a pack, and you smoke a pack a day. That would equal to $56 a week, $224 a month, $2,688 a year. Now add on .08% interest for taxes $2,903.08. Now that is hopefully if it is only a pack a day, without giving any away dropping any, breaking any etc. 

Now take your cost times that by just one million which isn't even all the smokers in America. That equals out to $2,903,080,000. Pretty large number what can tobacco companies buy with two billion dollars? Hmm...a lot of backup that is what. 

Then think of all your medical bills and how much of your illnesses are tobacco related. Don't lie to yourself because your making yourself sick, I know because I smoked almost ten years. Now that I have switched to e-cigs I breathe easier, I can smell things again, I actually smell like my expensive amazing laundry soap, and on top of it I can exercise again and I haven't been hacking, gagging, and getting headaches. 

If you do decide to make the switch, remember that even if you don't feel like you are having a "nic fit" you ARE withdrawing from cigarette chemicals, don't mistake it for the electronic cigarette. You will be tired, nauseous, and have headaches when you first quit tobacco. If the nicotine in your e-liquid is too strong, buy 0mg and mix it and it will be a lot easier, because that first drag is harsh.

I hope this blog post can give people some idea of why it is better to switch and that some of your questions may be answered, or thoughts validated. 

Quit supporting the tobacco companies now, and for good!